A Clouded mind

It was all fine and I was of the belief that it will be as it was. But change is the way of life and change it did! The rhythm has a new tune to it; It makes me nervous. I feel cornered. Not being used to talk back in a desirable way to a special set of people, I don't know what to say. I have always been a person of few words and bad at arguments.

The deafening silence races my heartbeat. The mood dejects me. The clashes makes me doubtful of my abilities. Confusion sets in with a sense of hope and despair. Am I discovering a new me? Am I pushing too hard? Am I becoming selfish to see my own convenience?

Reason and romance don't gel well. But what about reason built on top of romance? Will the reason slip because of the improper gelling? And will that even get noticed?

Sleeping with a heavy heart is not what one desires. But at times, its the best the world can offer. Amidst the cacophony of Social Networking alerts and Technology aids, one cannot be alone for a moment. I look at my Facebook page and try to get lost in that ocean of virtual humanity while the heart nurtures itself to brace another tough day!